8 de septiembre de 2011

I will not make the same mistakes that you did, I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery, I will not break the way you did. You fell so hard. I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far. I lose my way and it's not too long before you point it out. I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes, I'm forced to fake a smile every day of my life. My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with.
I watched you die, I heard you cry every night in your sleep. I was so young, you should have known better than to lean on me, you never thought of anyone else,
you just saw your pain and now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing.
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk. Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt. Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me. Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything. Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in. Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty.
Because of you I am afraid.